it started like this

It all started with this picture:

It's my little sister Lora and I.  Nothing spectacular about it.  It was taken in a Shoney's parking lot.  On a very overcast day.  The weekend of my graduation and just a short couple of hours before she boarded a plane to go back to school.  No, it doesn't look especially amazing.  But it was special. 

Because as fate had it, it was the last picture I'd ever take with her.

What stands out to me about this picture, besides it being our last, is that we almost didn't get it.  We'd just finished breakfast, and my out-of-town family (including Lora) was in a bit of a rush to get to the airport.  I don't remember who suggested it or insisted.  I think maybe me.  But we took them.  Pictures of my family.  And this last squishy-sweet one that is so us.

My best friend Ginger and I hopped in a car, Lora in the back seat.  And we scooted her to the airport. I asked if she wanted me to wait with her in the airport (back when you could) but she said "no;" Grandma and Grandpa Hernandez were going to be there.  She wanted to spend a little time waiting with them.  We exchanged a hurried hug and kiss good bye.  I promised to meet up with her to get those matching tattoos when she went on a college singing tour and would be in close-by Kentucky that summer.  One more hug.  And she was gone.

She was killed in a car wreck and taken from us just two weeks later.  That summer is the first that I remember photography and pictures - capturing moments in time that you can't really get back - became important to me.

My mom couldn't believe I was willing to fly a photographer friend to Evyn's first birthday party in Nashville.   But James was deploying to Iraq a second time days after that party.  A particularly dangerous mission.  And for all I knew I wouldn't see him again.  I wanted someone who understood me and my passion for good pictures; who was willing to exhaust himself to capture that trip.  Just in case.

Then James left, and besides me wanting to express myself creatively, photography became about capturing time not just for posterity, but for James.   Half a world away from his baby girl.  A year of her life he would never fully understand or experience or remember.

And now.  Now it's important to me for so many reasons.  And I'm growing and learning and getting better at it every day, thanks to a number of factors I hope to share with you in future posts. 

I'm not the only one.  Who appreciates fantastic pictures.  Who imagines myself ten years down the road flipping through a shoe box or album or coffee table book of images that remind me of the way we were.

 

 

So I've started a little journey.  With the thought that maybe, maybe I can do this for other folks, too. 

to be continued...

Comments

[Philippine Real Estate]

may you live your life to its fullest..

[The American Homemaker]

This is the first time I've visited your blog and you made me cry... LOL

[Keri]

Crystal, I have always loved the pics on your blog and what a great post!!! Looking forward to seeing your pics!

[Ransacked Goods]

Ah, someone who really gets photography. What you see through that camera and how you see it holds great value. And yes, you certainly CAN do this for other folks.

[Gift Delivery Philippines]

It's so sad to hear that our love ones need to say good bye to us.That is the most painful part in the family.Hope your still cherish the moment that you've together with your sister.

-Ashley

[Amber]

So, so very true. Photography is a priceless gift. That you have a true talent for. It has been so fun to see your photos evolve on your blog. Sweet memories for sure!

[mary]

This post really, really moved me. And I know if I'm ever lucky enough to have kids, I'm going to be documenting their every move with my camera. Your photos are great! :)

[MCH]

Wow, your sister is really pretty, And isn't this a great last picture to have? I am glad you have such a precious one. I understand your reason behind photography now. I love your blog and have been checking it frequently. Your kids are beautiful and I can't wait to find more of your photo's online. Have you gotten to know your camera by now? Let me know if i can be of help. Also, I know some good sites that might be helpful too. Another fun thing is to participate in the different photography challenges out there, put out by other bloggers. Again, let me know if I can be of help. Take care!

ps. I love your pictures. You are good!

[Melissa from Pittsburgh]

So sorry about your sister.

I too know have that bug for retaining pictures and keeping memories alive in them.

I want to be better.

Your pictures are truly lovely. Good luck with whatever you want to do, I'm sure you will be wonderfully successful.

[Erin Beck]

I was just thinking and talking about you and your sister to my mother in law today, Her coworker just went to her son's crash site from 10 years ago in New Mexico, he was killed instantly from a semi truck. He was in the Marines and they were putting up a cross at the site, I told them your story about that. I miss you so much a want to see you so bad! We need to work something out:)

[Heather]

I have followed you for a while...and you have gotten good. I love your use of Av. BEST of luck to you. I have seen that it does not matter if you go to photography school. You have got to have the "EYE". Girl you have got it! And it looks like your proficient with editing too! Blessings,
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[Julie]

Beautifully written.

[Babs Harrell]

Awesome post. I hope to stay tuned to more of what you have to say.

[Mrs. Staff Sergeant]

Oh my gosh, you've got me crying here!

I found you through Rachel and had to comment. I can so relate to this post. My husband is in the Air Force and we went through through a desert deployment starting when our first son was 7 months old. I had always been "the annoying picture taker" in my family up until then, but began taking zillions of photos when my husband left for the same reasons you talk about here. I've felt such significance in each "special shot" since then. It's much more personal- meaningful- than just taking snapshots for me as well, but I never could exactly describe it. Yet, you've expressed it all so beautifully here! (not that I'd ever attempt to take more than pix of my own family- I'm only just learning how to handle my camera- but I guess I wanted to share that I understand a bit where your passion for photography comes from.)

I am truly sorry to hear about your sister's loss. She was so lovely...

I look forward to following your journey here :) Your photos are inspiring!

[Elizabeth]

I look forward to hearing about your next adventure. by the way, your photography has become even more amazing in recent months. I check the blog regularly, even though I rarely comment anymore (having three boys under five can do that!)

Thanks for again reminding me to live in the moment.

[Rachel @ American Mum]

Hmmm... where will this story end? In the purchase of something? :)

[Kung Pow HausFrau]

That is a touching story, and those are beautiful pictures!

[Amory]

How exciting! I love seeing your pictures. Best of luck in wherever your journey takes you!

[Tiff@Three Peas]

WOW thanks for this post! I can't wait to hear more about your "journey"

[Olivia]

i'm all teary eyed...maybe its the hormones of pregnancy or the touching story you shared. maybe i'm off to take more pictures of noah with me in them...

[celia]

Thanks so much for sharing this!!!!
Will keep reading your next posts!

[Amber]

Fantastic - can't wait to hear more about your new "journey"....I love reading your posts!!

[Bahama Shores Mama]

what a beautiful post. and I needed this reminder today that pictures ARE important. Thank you!